Recently I’ve been thinking a lot about life. And what I’m doing with mine. And how I could be dreaming bigger and doing more. And how talking like this is all a bit scary for a mom like me.
I’m a 30-something-year-old woman who feels like the course of my life hasn’t quite been fully determined yet. There is still time to dream. There is still time to pursue some things that normally I would just shy away from.
I keep thinking that if I’m willing to take some risks now by faith, maybe God could use me uniquely for His kingdom. How? I don’t really know, but maybe there is fruit He has for me to bear, but I’ve got to be brave enough to step out and try.
The truth is, our choices today will impact what’s to come tomorrow, whether that’s safe, comfortable choices or wild, risky ones. It’s just, am I willing to try? Is God calling me to try something outside of my comfort zone for His sake?
This isn’t to say that I’m discontent with my roles as a minister’s wife and stay-at-home-mom. I love that my husband and I are in ministry and that I get so much time to influence my boys, but those are just two of my dreams. There other things I enjoy, am passionate about, even (dare I say) good at that I’d like to pursue.
What about you? We mothers invest so much of ourselves in our littles. Our dreams become dreams for their good, to see them do amazing things and mature into wise adults. Without question, this is the heart of motherhood.
But what about you as a woman? Mama, what are your dreams? Have you forgotten (or just been too tired) to dream for yourself? Maybe God is calling you to try something new, to trust Him and go for it. Why not try? What’s to lose?
These are the things I’ve been thinking and praying about lately. And it’s been fun. Sure, some of my dreams sound silly if I actually say them out loud, but that’s the great thing about prayer. You don’t have to say them out loud. You can just whisper them to God and He hears. And since He is the one writing the stories of our lives, I think He is a safe person to trust them with. He doesn’t laugh at our possibly farfetched ambitions. Rather, I think He takes joy that we are placing them in His hands, to do whatever He will with them.
So take some time tonight before you fall asleep and ask God to help you think big about your life. How could He uniquely use you to contribute to the Kingdom? How could you be flourishing more as a woman?
To end, I leave you with two of the most faith-building verses I know, Ephesians 3:20-21.
Now to Him who is able
to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think,
according to the power that works within us,
to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus
to all generations forever and ever.